Under the Mask.

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When I was young, someone told me to be myself. Easier said than done but the only problem I had was I didn’t know who I was. It started at an early age, insecurity, doubt, dishonesty, low self-esteem. Self-worth wasn’t even in my vocabulary. I didn’t like looking in the mirror because I didn’t like the person staring back at me, and didn’t even know why. That was the bad thing was I didn’t even know why I felt this way. I tried to be like everyone else and in the end, it made me feel empty inside.

The good news is I don’t feel or think this way about myself anymore. I have learned that I was created in the image of my heavenly father and Christ died for my sins, so that in itself was enough, but also I have learned how much he loves me and wants a relationship with me. I still think sometimes how a righteous, perfect, loving God could want a relationship with this pathetic human that I am. i don’t ask any questions, I try to love Him to the best of my abilities, but I fail, that’s the beauty of His Grace.

Sadly, many people in the world today do the same thing I used to do. The put their masks on and pretend to be someone their really not. They spend lots of money to buy plastic parts for their body’s just to keep up with the neighbors. They buy expensive cars and big houses for no clear reason but to have them. Sorry, just because your married and have ten kids by nine different woman doesn’t constitute a house with 20 bedrooms and 15 bathrooms. But this is what society is made up of today, a bunch of Barbie’s and Kens running around aimlessly.

Just the other day someone was poking fun of me because of the car I drive. They said “your better than that piece of junk.” My response, “Oh so I am better than a car that’s paid for, my bad, excuse me a minute so I can go get in more debt with a car i cannot afford like you,” needless to say that was the end of the conversation and she went on about her business. Sad isn’t it? but it happens all the time. Plastic people trying to make the world a better place by making everyone else plastic, makes perfect sense.

Big cars, big houses, big hair, and lots of make up is what the world is about today to try and cover up the wonderful people God made. Ya see, if were made in His image, than whats the reason for make up? True story though if you think about it, look at that pathetic place called Hollywood. Theirs more plastic there than the majority of plastic company’s. The only thing those people have on us little people is a lot of expensive, worthless stuff that they have no idea what its all for.

Even Christians hide behind masks. Ohhhhh what you didn’t think I was going to leave us out did you? Christians are notorious for being the fakest people around. Not all but a lot. Look around the ones that put on their Sunday best, their pretty smile and say amen at everything the pastor says. Then once their out the doors their worldly face comes back and all is lost. trust me I was this way for a while until God opened my eyes about it. I was running around doing everything I could get my hands on that was Christian. I read books, indulged in windy arguments and proclaimed the Good News without a spirit. Then the Lord got a hold of me and said “Be still, and know that I am God.”

When your stopped in your tracks by the Man himself, you have a tendency to listen.   I started to love Him as He loved me, being obedient, and walking closer to Him, and what do you know, I started to feel comfortable in my own skin. This is what people are missing, being comfortable in their own skin, and how awesome it is. This tells me that God loves me for who I am and there’s nothing you or anyone else can do about it. This was the point in my life when my self-esteem started to develop and my self-worth was growing, because I realized one valuable thing, Without Jesus Christ, i am nothing, period.

Thanks for reading!!! Be Blessed!


2 thoughts on “Under the Mask.

  1. Great post. Especially love this sentence: “Big cars, big houses, big hair, and lots of make up is what the world is about today to try and cover up the wonderful people God made.” I’ve struggled with adult acne and past comments about me being ugly and have come to realize just how literally uncomfortable I’ve gotten in my own skin. And I have to ask myself sometimes – who am I trying to impress anyway. It amazes me how obsessed the culture is with the idea of a beauty that is fleeting.

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