Quit trying to Quit, Just Surrender..

I Surrender All

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I heard this last night at a meeting and wow! It hit me like a brick because I have struggled lately with an issue and my problem is I was trying to quit and not surrender. I’m thankful that I have surrendered and the Lord has removed the issue I was struggling with, only when I stopped quitting and surrendered.

Surrender seems like a weak word in today’s society seeing how everyone tries to be independent only to fall by the wayside shaking their heads wondering why they fell. Surrender is not only strength but its courage as well, because we have to surrender to Christ to become strong.” In my weakness He is strong” is a very real, life changing verse in many ways. One is that when I realize how weak and pathetic I am on my own, that’s when He is strong.

But the key is I have to surrender, not quit, there is a difference. Quitting is the cowards way out. Quitters are the ones that have given up on life and have no hope. People who surrender are the true champions in life because they are the one’s who have come to Christ and let Him change them. I have heard it so many times from people, “I will change when I’m ready.” No you wont because it is humanly impossible to change on our own. Without God, there will be no change in one’s life.

When the Lord say’s to “surrender all to Him,” He means, “all.” Not just the things we want to or the things we feel like giving Him, but ALL. Good and bad and then He in his majestic grace cleans us and forgives our sins as far as the east is from the west.  But we have to surrender every day, not just when we feel like it. Remember when Paul says “he dies to self everyday” well that’s the point. We have to die to ourselves and surrender to Him to gain strength.

We were made in the image and likeness of our creator which tells me we are all beautiful people because God is beautiful. It is such a humble feeling to know that the God of the universe, wants me to surrender my life to Him.  It’s a necessity for this guy to surrender every day because I know where I could end up if I don’t, and that’s not a place I want to go back to. (This is the point were you say to your self “Self, I wonder what kind of life he lived before Christ?” then you go back to check out the rest of my blog, its good stuff!)

So on that note I am signing of for the evening as I prepare to go watch the Senior PGA tour in the morning and enjoy a long weekend, so till next time my friends; Run your race, fight the good fight and remember that you bear the image of God, you may be the only Christian some people will ever meet, what will you do?

Thanks for reading!!!!

Be Blessed!!!!!!!

I Just Want To be Closer.

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  Yet to all who did receive Him, to those who believed in His name, He gave the right to become children of God. —-John 1:12 

Before I came to the Lord, before Christ took me by the hand and said “Follow me,” my life was that of a dead man walking. Skin and bones, nothing more and nothing less, soulless, heartless, and scared. I drank to get drunk and had sex with as many woman as I could because I couldn’t bear to be alone. This was my life daily, and the weekends just got worse for that meant more drinking and more woman. I was my own worst enemy and in a sense, created my own prison.

With no hope, no love, and no faith, suicide sounded better everyday. Everyday i wanted to stop, but couldn’t, I was out of control and really didn’t care because my thoughts were just this, “I’m hurting no one but myself.” Lonely, depressed, and borderline suicidal made for a great time when you added booze. I was an emotional cocktail just waiting and wanting to be tipped over. The night when I fell in the middle of the street (this is where you go back to my very fist post I wrote) I could really careless if I lived or died, actually I was hoping for a car to come along and end it all, but God had other plans.

I drew close to anyone or anything that would make me feel better because deep down, I hated everything about myself. I was detestable to the man in the mirror and new if something didn’t change, all would be lost. I had a great knack for getting drunk and messing things up, so I figured this was a talent that was useful, so I continued in a life of self-absorbed destruction. Every thing was about me and only me and that’s just the way it was.

7 1/2 years later, I’m still here, and thank God! One thing I have learned is living this life for self is way to hard, It takes so much energy to be selfish and destructive. Living for Christ is a heck of a lot easier, just for the fact he takes care of all my needs. He know’s every hair on my head, all my thoughts and all my ways. He pulled me out of the garden of Satan, and put me at the Kings table. Today, I am a child of the most High, and I have resolved to give the King of all Kings, everything I have. I want to be closer to Him every second I breathe, only to fall to the wayside by the world and every thing evil in it.

All I want to do is draw closer to Christ, walk with Christ, and to talk with Christ, hold His hand in the cool of the day and hold Him and never let go. Today, because Christ died for us, I’m still alive, and how sweet it is!


Escapades of a Drunk.

This post is dedicated to some funny and down right hysterical stories from the days of chasing the moonlight and loving woman. Now one might ask "how are these stories funny?’ Well, when we sober up and start doing some reflecting on our past existence and start meeting other people that share the same stories that we do, we realize the insanity of our behavior and come to grips that it happened, and all you can do is laugh.

I have been in many meetings over the years listening to alcoholics share some pretty horrendous events from their lives, only to follow up with a room full of laughter. Now, when I first sober up I saw nothing funny about anything I did. But as the years has went by, I too have had some adventures that seem like their right out of a movie.   So I have decided to dedicate a category to the funny things that happened when I was drinking. Once a week I will write a new post to share, that even though life then was a living hell, their were some funny and down right knee slapping events that occurred.


Even though I wasn’t a martini drinker, (I thought a guy should drink beer or whiskey, that other stuff were for woman) when their was nothing else left, I may have had a couple just to keep the buzz going. If it wasn’t beer or whiskey, heck tequila did the trick on most nights, I wasn’t drinking. On one particular night I went out with some friends that were trying to “hook me up” with a friend of there’s. My only concern for the evening was getting drunk and having sex, period. Seeing how I had the next couple days of off work, I was going all out that night.(plus it was payday!) So the evening was set and I met my friends in a local eatery for dinner and drinks. The girl that I was supposed to meet had to cancel because of family problems. (as I found out later, the girl I was to wine and dine that evening was married, and her family problem was her husband found out about all her other affairs she had had in the past, and to say the least, he wasn’t to happy with her actions and filed for a divorce, the big problem; he was very wealthy and she basically did nothing except spend his money and sleep around)

I wasn’t upset by this because frankly, I didn’t mess around with married woman. That was one rule I had, married woman were of limits. So my friends and I decided to just enjoy the evening and boy did we, before I knew it I was three sheets to the wind and the bartender was calling last call. By this time my friends had left and I was making my moves on another young lady at the bar. But in the end I knew it was time to go home. Not having much sense when I was young, I usually drove home after the bar(how stupid, thank God I didn’t hurt anyone!). So, crooked eyed, I get in the car and head for home. Right before my house was a gas station and I had to stop because I was out of cigarettes and any drunk that smokes, waking up with a hang over without a cigarette was bad news.

As I pulled in I seen the flashing lights behind me and I knew were I was going to spend the next couple of days. As I’m sitting there I realized I was to drunk to move let alone drive, and the cop comes up and knocks on the window. “Sir, I noticed you wee swerving across the yellow line, could you get out of the car?” My response and please don’t ever say this to a cop! “Officer, I’m to drunk to get out, why don’t you get in the passenger seat and take a load off.” Yea, not the best thing to say at 4 o clock in the morning to a cop that has been working his but off all night. And the only reason I remember what I said is because he wrote it down in his files as one of the funniest things ever said to a cop by a drunk!

So, needless to say I spent the next 72 hours in the drunk tank and thanks to my “comment” the whole station was laughing about it the next morning! Now I’m not saying that I’m proud of this by no means, all I am saying that when I look back, it was as you would say “A real knee slapper”! Today I do still do dumb things that make me wonder sometimes if I hadn’t fried all of my brain cells when I was drinking, but the fact is I can laugh about these things now because that was the life of another person. The old Scott. Today I am very grateful to God for pulling me out of that mess I lived in. But the one one thing I have learned is you have to laugh at yourself sometimes to make any sense of things today, and laughter is good for the soul.

Thanks for reading!! Be Blessed!!!!!

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